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Sunday, July 22, 2012
Guest Post by Emen -I Know I Need To Be Spanked
I know that now. I went without it for a long time, although the hunger never left me and it was always the core of my fantasies. Then just a little short of a year ago I woke up and realized how much I needed to be spanked. How much I needed the submission to the hand and the roaring in the blood with every blow. And I realized I had to do it in secret.
I’m a Secret Spanko. Are you? Is that why you’re reading? I married vanilla for many good reasons that I don’t regret. Thinking I could live without the kink, that that wasn’t all there was to me. And it isn't, it just happens to be one of the best things there is to me.
There’s no approaching This Thing with my husband. It would only confuse and hurt him. I respect that. And now I respect that it makes me whole. It makes me much better able to deal with life. It makes me happy and horny and once again capable of the rocking orgasms I used to have when I was free to live my kink. It calms me, it soothes me, it makes me insane with desire, it gives me hope and something to look forward to. And it has brought the most amazing people into my life.
So I do it. In secret.
How about you? Which do you crave? Dream about, anticipate? Do you get the wetness between your legs, the tremor in your cock, about being bared and bent and shaking, waiting, every sense so heightened that the smallest sound is painful to your ears the way the strap, the brush, the cane, the hardest hand will pain your helpless flesh?
Or do you dream of cool command? The careful calculations. The finest shadings to your dominance, guided by all your experience, the physical stamina and the mentality of a born gambler. Willing to take the responsibility, shoulder the trust, risk it all on this crazy crapshoot that you can create reality.
Do you dream it? Do you do it? Secretly? It can be hard sometimes. It can be ridiculous sometimes, the things you have to go through.
I know I need to be spanked. And I will be soon. But while we wait, can you tell me about you?
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